Writing Complete

Writing was slow, difficult. I got to the end of the writing process exhausted. A little lost. The first draft clocked in about 40 pages too long. And it seemed like a mess. The structure felt incoherent, repetitive, rambling. And yet everything seemed immovable. A chaotic house of cards that I didn’t want to disrupt in case it came tumbling down.

I sent it off. Took some time away from the book.

And when I came back something had changed. I thought it was going to be impossible to cut 40 pages: everything seemed so crucial and intertwined. But these fresh eyes saw something different – I felt free to cut whole swathes of the book, juggling sections with ease. I’d been too close before. a mechanic wedged between the cogs of this monstrous machine. Now I was seeing it from the outside – a surgeon more than willing to lop out a spleen if it would make the patient better.

It felt good. Within a week the book had shed 40-something pages. It was lean now. The things I’d cut were never missed. And I’d even had a chance to add stuff. Details worth sharing, ideas that had floated loose for too long now finding a home.

Summer’s over and I’m back at this thing again. It’s finished, although it’s not. At least I know the book will work.

Now I just need to draw the damn thing.

 

A little update

The last few months have been some of the most creatively challenging of my career so far, but finally I have a first full draft of the Gamish script to show for it.

At the start of the writing process back in around May 2017 I had only an idea of what interested me in game design and theory, a decent idea of the book’s structure, and an optimistic view that I could be finished a first draft in a few months.

But finally sitting down to research and write, it quickly became apparent that this was going to be a lot more challenging than just producing a video game version of Filmish. While video game history is just decades old (even if we’re generous it’s still only half the age of cinema), and video game theory still in its infancy, the history and theory of games and play goes right back to the dawn of humanity and beyond.

In the first weeks of writing I was taking myself on a guided tour of Neolithic archeology. A month later it was ’60s tech counterculture, ’70s entrepreneurship.

Every book and article I researched opened avenues to new ideas and thoughts, and quickly my plans for a swiftly written first draft disintegrated. After about three months I was hit with a huge bout of writer’s block – losing the will to write as all I could see was endless research ahead of me.

But I listened to my better instincts, and after a few days of banging my head against a wall, I stepped away from the computer to recharge myself. I spent time with family and friends, went for some walks and even built some Lego.

I came back mostly recharged and plowed on, but still it was slow going. The details of this thing were immense. Week on week I was having to delve into new fields of research – history, neurology, psychology, philosophy. It was exciting, but with every new set of ideas I’d have to spend hours or days reading around to get a grasp.

Towards the end I was flagging, leaving gaps to be filled later, my structure becoming a muddle to be sorted later. But I know that I needed something complete. Something that would let me step out and see it from a new angle. To get some perspective.

And that’s where I am now. It’s off with my editor and a couple of test readers. Soon I’ll be doing rewrites to plug the gaps, fix the structure, beef up the number of games referenced.

Sometime later this year, I’ll be able to begin drawing, and a whole new adventure will begin.

 

Project Update: Time and Space

One of the biggest personal challenges I face as a creator is giving myself enough time and space to work on things that might not lead to any specific outcome.

When I sit down to write or draw or research, it often feels like what I’m doing at any given moment must be essential to the outcome, or it’s not worth it. I find it really hard to step away from the frontlines of work and just spend time thinking.

This drive to produce outcomes can be creatively draining. Not only this, but it prevents me from examining the work I’m producing and the decisions I’m making. When you’re in the trenches focussing on a series of very small problems, it’s easy to lose sight of what you’re wanting to achieve.

By stepping back and spending some time reading around a subject, playing with ideas and approaches in my mind, and letting myself off the hook for not completing another few pages of writing, I actually do myself and my book a lot of good in the long term.

Writing on Gamish is now well underway. I’ve reached the point, around the 1950s and 60s, when computer scientists were programming the first games. I think I could learn something from the programmers of that era. Employed to develop software for multimillion dollar computers, they spent their free time in play, seeing if they could make these machines into toys or musical instruments.

With a sense of play, and a lack of pressure to produce results, this is where some of the best ideas come from.

I need to step back, and let my mind play for a while…

The Origins of Chess

One of the areas I’m fascinated to explore in the book is the way games have been a part of human life throughout history. While they are often seen as merely entertainment, for me the strongest testament to the importance of games is that they have endured as an artform throughout human history. A game like Chess has spread across the world, crossing numerous cultural boundaries along the way. This game spoke to people like nothing else could – and it has survived for around 1,400 years because of this.

You can easily imagine two people with a knowledge of chess, but separated by language, religion, culture, and even by a span of hundreds of years, being able to sit down together for a game of chess, and instantly connect through it.

This fascinating map shows the spread of chess across the globe after its invention in India around 600 AD. The game evolved as it moved, the pieces gaining their current powers in Spain during the 15th Century. It’s also thought that precursors to chess spread to India from the East and influenced the creation of the game.

Map showing the spread of chess throughout history

Press Start to Continue

Here I am at the very start of everything. It’s the comic book creator’s equivalent of that moment you bust open your new video game box, and after flicking through the instruction manual, slap the game into the console and launch the game. It feels like I’ve finally pressed start on this new project, and slowly this comic is going to be played to completion.

A good eighteen months since my first graphic novel Filmish came out, and here I am back again at the beginning, about to launch into another graphic journey, this time into the fascinating history of gaming. Specifically, video games.

Games have always fascinated me, but in a very different way to films. Games were always a little bit more out of reach for me. My older brother had a Spectrum ZX, later an Atari, and I would watch over his shoulder as he battled goblins in Golden Axe or dodged death in Mousetrap. I was too young to ever be that good myself, always taking great pleasure in the anticipation of play and then great disappointment when the game swiftly dispatched me and it was my brother’s turn again.

As I got older, there were rarely consoles in the house, but always at my friends’ houses. It made games all the more appealing and mysterious. I could never master them like others my age, never obsessively complete the games again and again, but I was still hooked. I’d go home, playing through Goldeneye levels in my head, leaning into corners like in MarioKart.

As a teenager, games became everything for a while. We’d play through Half Life together, squashed round a 14in monitor, each friend taking a key or button, allowing us to control Gordon Freeman by hive-mind. We’d mod up Operation Flashpoint and Quake, creating our own sound-effects and game modes.

I got my first console, finally, at the age of 22. And here I started to engage more with the world of gaming – seeing perhaps for the first time the true potential of games as an artform. I’d play for hours on end, making the most of the freedom afforded by my mid-twenties.

A few years later my gaming life got derailed by the birth of my son, and life took over. At first I’d try to sneak in cheeky sessions during naps, or after an abrupt 4am wakeup, but the dedication to regular gaming soon subsided.

But the passion remained. Even through the busy job of raising two kids and creating my first graphic novel, it remained. And now, ready to work on my second graphic novel, an exploration of this amazing medium seems perfect.

Games are at a key moment in their history – a tipping point where they are now finally being recognised for their huge and varied potential. Games are a major part of human life, and have always been with us – from their origins at the dawn of humankind through to the invention of video games and the evolution of the artform we know today. Like in my previous book, Filmish: A Graphic Journey Through Film, I’m going to use this book to explore all manner of interesting angles on my subject – looking at how games shape our understandings of race and gender, how they allow us to better understand the world we live in, and how they can change our lives for better or worse.

This blog will run throughout production of the book, giving an insight into where I am at in production, what cool things I’ve been reading about, and maybe offering some reviews and recommendations of games I’m playing.

Thanks for reading!